Questions?!

2008-07-11T13:13:00.001+08:00

2008-07-03T22:45:00.001+08:00

2008-06-15T21:59:00.001+08:00

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2008-01-29T00:43:00.001+08:00

oooh....si nian si yi zhong bing.

Tire.

2008-01-10T01:41:00.000+08:00

from 2.50

I are icemen.
We are icemen.
I get the champion
You get the champion
We'll gonna win! win! win! Win! WIN! WIN!!
scorpions GO!

2007-12-23T21:16:00.000+08:00

From this day on, floorball and work will be my life.

2007-11-26T23:02:00.001+08:00

http://mylittlenewhope2.blogspot.com/2007/11/gerald-rowena-now-in-barclays.html

damned...the sad stories

2007-11-12T22:20:00.001+08:00

His mouth is really irritating. And i feel like punching him no matter how nice the song is,

2007-10-24T01:10:00.001+08:00

Sigh....

2007-10-18T21:47:00.001+08:00

DUN understand wad the tax this tax that....

Stress.....wad the heck is that.

Argh...driving me mad

2007-10-16T13:55:00.000+08:00

in simple terms

No hopes are the hardest hit but it'll get by.

Half hopes are the ones that keeps me going.

Full hopes are the ones that makes me living.

2007-10-15T03:53:00.000+08:00

Just a moment ago, i was dreaming again.

Just a moment ago, i was holding.....

Just go to bed.

2007-10-09T12:06:00.000+08:00

If there were any thing to die for in this world, it will be eggs. smash them, make them, grab them. I can nvr live w.o them. THe nice hot slurping feeling of semi boiled. Yakun semi-hard, pure tea eggs, scrambled...sunny side up. I had 3 today. Taste is heavenly.

2007-10-04T22:23:00.001+08:00

i feel like.....shutting myself. Den crash my head against a wall of plain transparent glass

2007-09-28T00:36:00.000+08:00

Couldn't believe wad i heard and been thru. It has been living hell in AMERON PTE LTD. I cannot believe such an autocratic company still exist in this world today.

1) i tendered
2) the oldest engineer tendered 2 weeks ago
3) while i was on leave, they terminated a permananet engineer who slogged for 7 yrs.
4) they wanted to cut a day off from my leave just because my MC is not endorsed by a company doctor or any other polyclinic

Its very sad to see that i'm so disgusted with what my company is doing on the inside. I'm not being critical but i feel for these pp who slogged their hearts out for the company but in return, was a letter of termination, an escort and goodbye that is.

All in all, in no way, unless u are desperate for $. This was an extremely sad and disturbing experience i have felt.

Remember, Its AMERON PTE LTD.

2007-09-26T18:18:00.000+08:00

My spoils for the day.

Pedro shoes - $89 (10% off, citibank credit cannot get discount)
Pedro socks - 3 for $10 (special offer)

FX creations - $59 (15% discount for OCBC credit holders)

Total loss = $160/-

Amen.

2007-09-19T21:44:00.000+08:00

The proximity of life. Blind.
________________________________________________________________________________

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this time
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me dies when I let you go

2007-09-19T20:25:00.000+08:00

why did i pick the chocolate out and eat it.....zzzz....shldnt have done that.

Rushed finished one chapter, must move on halfway thru otherwise canot complete on time.

Hope my sore will heal b4 the BBQ so i can eat more gd stuff. Drink more beer.

I have a long list of food to try and ead and go in Singapore. What i lack, is someone to go dere to makan tog. nvm.....

I'm feeling hungry for my dinner.....Not been running consistently for almost 2 weeks....i can feel the weight getting back. I must run but each time i run, my night is wasted and i cant do my things. When i do, i need coffee, motivation, mood and i cant really concentrate.....

Am i realli suitable to go into banking??? I ask myself. I question myself. I need some quality skills, some abilities. I finally realised wad it means when i heard from a friend "There are many mediocre people around when you are working" Its true non the less. Being mediocre is not something wrong, what's wrong is sum ppl want this and that but they dun try their best to do it mainly becoz of fear. But it is wad pp wants that define how they perform or behave in their lives. We as bystanders have no right to compare nor contrast. I dun care, all i want is just money.

2007-09-19T14:23:00.000+08:00

Get on with ur FcuKing life lar.....

i on MC you also must msg me to ask me i on MC.

Lunch time still must sms me for whose number whose number. Get on with ur life can?
And seriously, u wanna quit, just quit, dun tell me, i'm not really interested and neither will will contact how u are doing.

Just dun get involved into my life and free time. Get a life. Find some friends.

2007-09-18T16:00:00.000+08:00

At 3pm sharp, you just freaking piss me with ur no brainer kind of talk.

If u wanna quit just quit la. What's your objective of telling me u are quitting den wan to pass me ur work.

Did u realise that everyday when u open ur sickening and ugly pouting mouth of urs, its always the same things?

fuck off

2007-09-18T13:19:00.000+08:00

Seriously, what is ur problem? Why do u keep telling me you gonna leave, u tendering ur resignation, u going for interview. Fuck u lar. you realli have nothing else better to say. stay away from me lar. Asshole, i dun even care where u go, rot in hell in engineering.

2007-09-18T12:31:00.000+08:00

i'm really low in morale right now. My throat is sore and i dun feel well.

If like those guys from HR or accounting were sitting beside me i would feel much better right now but they are not. And its this sickening guy who is making my blood pressure rising.

Next week shall tender.

?

2007-09-17T10:43:00.001+08:00

Everytime i go back to work, i feel very tired and sad, sigh.....First its becoz its monday. second, i start to think abt everything else and many other things which i wished and want to do during the workign hrs. When i get back, i'm jsut too tired to bother but i still must force myself.

Now i must start to be more focused and disciplined. Persistent and strong to face all these. I must not let other things get in my way and activities must be prioritized. I hope this will pay off.

2007-09-16T21:04:00.000+08:00

My new handling wrap 3 for 5.90. Hip trending and stylish. Gay, its lime green. Its my precious floorball stik

From this moment, she's my baby. yes, i need her more than anything else. It's my bed i'm talking abt. Wad are u thinking? I nid some Sleep. I need to Sleep more. I need more sleep

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Melon, stawberry, cheese, mocha, apple? chocolate? cant remember

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Donut donut, some fake or pirated stuff like bubble tea. Wanna-bes. No barriers to entry. Monopolistic company. Many different products with slightly differentiated goods.

2007-09-16T13:21:00.000+08:00

Wicked Aura Batucada. Yesterday at outside Hereen for some event, i think *scape youth.park. Notice behind got some pp playing floorball at the courts, feels like down there got some international school. After that, i just wanna play some team sports.

Donut donut at bendeemer (some neighbourhood market outlet) Well, expensive and small. Later try taste. Bought 6 flavours. gave one free normal donut. Must try see nice anot.

2007-09-14T18:52:00.001+08:00

Dunno y i bother to say this.

Sis ggin for holiday to Australia. When i come back from work, mum say no dinner tonight tell me to settle myself. k lor, den decide to stay home study sia, must work hard to go towards what i am striving for.

Frank to say, rather than one thing, i had rather many other things which i really value.

Enuf said, hafta go strive to my goals lor

2007-09-12T19:00:00.000+08:00

Unfortunately, unluckiness befalls yet again. another round of disappointment

Its takes at least 2 degrees, 21 years of xperience, some luck and away from singapore to earn at least 10K

Last.........

2007-09-03T16:47:00.001+08:00

Last a little bit longer......its only 3 more mths to go....

Push urself please, dun give up.

SUm pp

2007-08-22T22:57:00.000+08:00

Some pp are just so damned fuking irritating. Really cant beat them. They can just rattle on the same things over and over again non=stop everytime they see u. And i mean the same things. They are like the chicken of nasi lemak which is being fried over and over and over again until its dry, wrinkled and sucky.

The worst part, they keep telling you things that you already know and they ask u to "think abt it" Hello, i already knew that a few yrs ago, so why do u tell me that?

No EQ? low EQ? or just that i'm nice to bully.

SO! What makes you think that u are going to leave earlier than me? y do u keep telling me to notice this, take care of this and that.

1) my contract ends in 2 mths, urs in 3 mths.

2) The reason you take up the job basically is number one, you are desperate for $, second, u are influenced by ur peers while i just rather earn some $ than doing nothing at home.

3) You need to pay ur loans, I dun need. When i'm better off, i'll just pay my parents at my own time interest free.

4) You cant get a job now. For this, i am in the sam situation now but at least i get referrals.

5) I work my socks off at the shop floor while you slack. I get dirty and slimy while u get clean and wish to be clean.

6) You cant even stand the test of learning from scratch, wad makes you think your attitude will be better off in any other company

7) I have dreams and aspirations. So do you, But u just talk no action, TNA.

8) Y the hell do u make fun of me? i just cant be bothered coz i just cant get along well with you.

This is a test of who is to blow up first, who has the patience and who can last the longest test will have the last laugh. Ha ha ha.

2007-08-19T17:45:00.000+08:00

No matter wad happens, u are always for yourself. Remember, you only fight for your own and the ones you one to. When times are bad, just keep on fighting, for the sake of yourself and for the sake of life.

2007-08-12T23:43:00.000+08:00

quit the fucking job damnit

stupid

2007-08-06T19:07:00.000+08:00

I cant believe i'm so easily contented these days. a simple thing like taking a not bad picture is gd enuf for me already.

was just outta army (top right), Was going to Japan for IA (top left)
Was going to work and travel USA summer 2006 (bottom right), Now presently a professional outfit but an engineer by day (bottom left) I'm not in the insurance business please.

Those were the days. Work is tiring.

Life is really hard for me these days. *puff puff* Sigh.

sigh

2007-07-30T18:04:00.001+08:00

Dun compare, i cannot do wad others can. Neither can others do wad i can.

S--m--s

2007-07-26T21:37:00.000+08:00

When eyes met,

"hi, gd morning"
"gd night"
"have you eaten"
"how's ur day"
"you look nice"
"see you again"
"today was nice"
"are you free"

When it came together

"good morning my dear"
"good afternoon my dear"
"have you eaten my dear"
"how's ur day my dear"
"you look beautiful my dear"
"let go out together"
"good night my dear"
"i love you my dear"

When tempers flared

"why do u have to do this"
"cant u just"
"didnt i told you"
"dont tell me i cant"
"i'm tired"
"i dun wish to talk about it anymore"
"enough le"
"i'm tired"
"i'm tired"
"i'm sick"
"i'm tired"
"i'm tired"

When it all ends

"lets be friends"
"..............."

Good night, i'm tired.
(teared)

2007-07-24T18:36:00.000+08:00

Why am i the only one who'e hurting?

害怕

2007-07-23T20:50:00.001+08:00

我好害怕

Only floorball and shagness can take my mind away.

I just fucking commented on xiaxue's blog. Seriously, like i care.

the

2007-07-22T02:03:00.000+08:00

Irony of it all, where it all started it all ended. Sucks

I hate titles

2007-07-20T00:40:00.000+08:00

I hate many things. Freaky moody. Keane's 'everybody changing' Move away

Contracted

2007-07-19T20:00:00.000+08:00

Yar, this is my breakfast today, lunch? breakfast? Wadever lar. Yest night went to zouk den drink until quite high but today have to head down to sign contract so left at 2.30am. Not very fun lei but all right, met up with robin, super long time nvr meet him. Think will meet up with him soon again.

Ok, red bean and soya bean from me after the contract and meeting the agency company. ENd of the holidays, Not something i wanna do but i'll just try, both happy and afraid at the same thing though. 6 mths for the money and experience. Hopefully i will get wat i want to get in the future. Goal setting. ANyway, couldnt really wake up, headed around jurong east to meet the agency who got me the job. Sat in the car to ead and drink my soya bean, a little sad but thats life. I'm for myself.

Had a rough idea wad to put down today, but once i started typing, i cant rem wad i wanted to type. 5.45am every morning + OT, i'll work hard to get wad i want. Good bye good life, hard work coming up. Sucks la, when i start to type, the wrong words keep coming out. SHall end.

Jolly bean, myself and i

The rib-eye was from exotic grill. other than crocodile meat, they had quails and bbq frogs. Yishun ring road. You and Lai coffeeshop, blk 110.

Zangetsu

2007-07-18T16:10:00.000+08:00

Thats it. End of holidays.

isit gd or bad

2007-07-17T12:51:00.001+08:00

First, i wake up den i realised ibf called me, they on coporate retreat for 2 days alst week, as a result i get ot change my exam date. And nor extra charges yay!

Deni got my first interview, it wasnt so scary, a nice boss and everything. I just be normal den say say lor, but an engineer job, Haiz.....i dun even know i shld take up anot. I'm there for the experience but the prospect seems gd and the company looks gd. MNC somemore, just wondering if i shld realli take it up.

Den i just read the papers, it just gives more headline news ot our friendly neigh.... oops. First with the murder case, den the aviation problems, den with the royal police force, den before that there was the bilateral issues such as water, land, island, sand, IDR. Sucks la, same as the JCRC 2 years ago, headed by oops, guy nvm, its a char bo. the whole hall turned upside down by her. Even the top few position had some pp who rather benefit from their own personal gains rather than for the effort, at least i couldnt see it. PRIORITY.

These pp nvr get their priority right and they cannot take critism, otherwise is, they just turn a deaf ear. Well, its not my DAI CHI, in the future when they work liddat that, i'm sure not many pp will like but some pp are just like that just like how stubborn i am, I believe when more than 1 say something wrong, den there's something very wrong. Basically our friendly neigh.... are doing the same thing. Arent they not supposed to remarry or smthing? i better not say too much otherwise it will not only strain our bilateral issues but i'll get sued as well. oops.

some people. Oh well. freaky mood. Complaining

Missing

2007-07-15T21:37:00.002+08:00

Gone are the days when things are achieved for a purposed, for a target, it has become something not Not to be acheived but smthing to work towards to, just less passion. Or rather, its more like achieved for others and a self ambition and ideal.
I've lost wad i could do more and could achieve for like a soulless piece of wandering ghost looking for his next stop. I'm missing the passion that i used to have in my life.

mon

2007-07-13T11:13:00.000+08:00

First of the first. yes

xtra cost

2007-07-12T01:25:00.000+08:00

I hate it. i already have to pay $140 to take the exams. And after i click the payment i realised that day is convocation day and its at 1400 hrs, and damn it. the exam is at 1430 hrs. TO change the exam date would mean to incurr and xtra 53 bucks jusst to change the date. i'm sure writing doesnt help.

Dear Mr Lee,

I regret to inform you that our insitute allows a change of date or timing with a levy charge ofr 53.45 (with GST).

No other charges will be incurred.

Regards
blahblah

This is wad i expect to see tomolo. and yeah, no one gives a damn when its not their problem. Fuck

I hate to pay for money that are unjustifyable

qn.

2007-07-11T19:22:00.000+08:00

Tell me. What are the following reasons to see pp dressed in overalls to collect transcript? I see many. What are urs

Wonders

2007-07-09T11:49:00.000+08:00

The new 7
MACHU PICCHU - Peru
COLOSSEUM - Rome, Italy
GREAT WALL OF CHINA - China
THE TAJ MAHAL - India
CHRIST THE REDEEMER - Rio de Janeiro, Brazil
Petra - Jordan
CHICHEN ITZA - Yucatan, Mexico

The ancient few
GREAT PYRAMIDS OF GIZA - Egypt
HANGING GARDENS OF BABYLON - Central Iraq
COLOSSUS OF RHODES - Rhodes, Greece
STATUE OF ZEUS - Olympia, Greece
PHAROS LIGHTHOUSE - Alexandria, Egypt
TEMPLE OF ARTEMIS - Selcuk, Turkey
MAUSOLEUM OF HALICARNASSUS - Bodrum, Turkey

The shortlisted
Statue of liberty - New York, USA
Acropolis - Athens, Greece
Neuschwanstein Castle - Fussen, Germany
Stonehenge - Amesbury, Britain
Eiffel Tower, Paris, France
Alhambra - Granada, Spain
Hagia Sophia - Istanbul, Turkey
Angkor Wat - Cambodia
Kiyomizu Temple- Kyoto, Japan
Sydney Opera House - Sydney, Australia
Kremlin - Moscow, Russia
Statues of Easter Island - Chile
Timbuktu - Mali

What about? (Joke)
Thea leaning tower of Pisa - Italy
Venice - Italy
Petronas tower - Malaysia
Sleeping Statue of Buddha - Thailand
Largest buddha statue - Hongkong
Empire state building - USA
The 12 apostles - Australia
The Merlion? - Singapore

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A week of running, 3hrs of floorball, a whole load of tv and dramas, No sun, no life, no interviews. other than too free, get a life otherwise get some tuf training.

watch

2007-07-08T20:14:00.000+08:00

See the spin, watchful eyes, flankers pacing each other, a left turn, a twist of the wrist. Clashes of the Titan, smacked and smooshed into one another, spin richochete after spins after spins. Eyes on ball, concentration, passion and forceful. Hooks and twist plays, glance ur enemies, judgement day choose, think, cool head relaxed, beat the closest, watch the back, pacy runners closing. Manoeuvre through with flair, intelligent plays, include pass, dribble, check, move with speed. Mind over body.

Eyes on ball, remember the image training. cut down to 0.01s, swoosh ur arm, drag? slap? smack? Choose, decisiveness. Watchful eyes, GO! reflective ground with power and accuracy. Scores. Face OFF!

I miss you

2007-07-08T02:04:00.001+08:00

fridays

2007-07-06T21:11:00.001+08:00

I hate fridays

dying

2007-07-05T16:24:00.001+08:00

I'm dying to get some interview exposure, i wonder wads wrong really......resumre not gd enuf>? cover letter not gd enuf? i dunnoe

bikini

2007-07-05T13:23:00.000+08:00

tomolo is the aniiversary of the bikini day. 61 years ago, the first bikini was invented, that proves one thing, invented by a girl, she must be quite proud of herself. Invented by a guy, he did a great honour for the guys in the world, worth clapping and saluting for. They shld just write a policy that makes the girls wear bikinis on this day tomolo and strut their stuff, den i will get my ass off my chair and go out for a walk for a major feast, by the way, no red meat on friday. boo!

no mood

2007-07-04T19:31:00.000+08:00

I have no mood to blog down wads happening in my life

From
Redang
Hi-tea
national stadium closure
vino vino wine bar
dempsey road wine company
glutton's bay
floorball
villa bali
hongkong trip
sentosa
shrek movie
vivocity

baaa....i dun wan to think animore

note

2007-07-04T12:37:00.000+08:00

Toa payoh Lorong 4 - dim sum + porridge + mian jiang kueh
Bukit Timah Plaza - Ah Zu ma B1-07 korean Food
- Pastries at dance arts studios
Esplanade - Front door entrance to the right (pastries)

....

2007-07-02T20:03:00.000+08:00

I'm at it again....i'm losing myself. I dreamt again....i see u, rejecting all over again.......each time i wake up i fall back in slumps...losing myself...i do all sorts, i pack my timetable, i run ard, i avoid thinking, i take up activities.....All it comes to myself is just that instance of the past. Maybe u were right, i am someone who cannot beget the past but all bcoz i'm an emotional man, i moved ahead without looking back, i moved too fast....all that rejection is putting myself in slumps....i repeat and repeat to myself again, i can be decisive, i can be be nice i can be an asshole. When it comes to love, i'm hopeless.....i'm weak, someone help me pls....

看着别人双双对对, i jus lose it to myself.....maybe its true its time.....u said time......onli time......time time and time.....and when u're gone, u saved urself. i dropped further.

more than meets the eye

2007-07-01T12:21:00.000+08:00

ok, whu wan to watch transformers? or rather whu havent watched transformer. think i just wait for the DL to come out den watch it at home.

why

2007-07-01T03:24:00.001+08:00

I really hate myself.

sigh

2007-06-26T21:19:00.000+08:00

I wan to disappear from the face of the earth

I pray everyday for somebody to save me.

2007-06-25T19:32:00.001+08:00

damn it

2007-06-25T19:23:00.000+08:00

I swear sporeans are the worst kind of drivers ard. They rather i bang into them than giving way to me. Sometimes u see a car needs to cut in and give way lar. WOODLANDS TRANSPORT, I'll make sure which coach u belong to and which company, freaking hell, u rather bang me than giving way to me. I swear lorry drivers who gets into any accident doesnt get my compassion, accident as in they killed someone or caused a car accident.

ANd there's one bloody thing that is, the slowest drivers are the ones that causes accident to happen. WHo the hells travels at 50km/h on the expressway. There you go. There are really so many poor drivers ard. And my dad is one of them and yet, he doesnt realise. They nvr learn. fuck life.

i am....

2007-06-24T02:03:00.000+08:00

Been a busy week....all the way down from monday to fri....and to sat and sun and next week.

Cant really remember wad i did on monday. I was ggin somewhere but cant remember. Oh yar, i remembered, shrek three movie for free courtesy of the gay bro, danny.

Tuesday was sentosa as well as celebrating liz bday with the rest of the gang and ah seng and co all went for the mongolian steamboat buffet after that. Hmm, wads after wednesday.....cant rem....was it a free day? i rem ggin out to somewhere....nvm....thursday was returning the VCD i borrowed....den i went to somewhere....Oh, to ead dinner at my aunt's place.....Den jw and co jio supper at simpang bedok, got nothing to do so i went also...first time there but place easy to find......Friday, a sudden gathering to ead hi-tea, been wanting hi-tea for a long time but no one wants to go. SO we went, cum mind's bar playing board game.

Today is my nephew birthday 2 year old, i thot can go see my relative do some networking but the top guns wasnt there..but anyway, it was kinda weird with many strangers ard...dunno who is who's relative or whose is who's frends.

And so sat makes a break for me.....tomolo kallan 1pm wil be playing floorball.....paid an investment for the stick for some work out already so might as well make use of it. 100 dollars spent.

Next week, the up and coming redang trip is on the way.hope for a sunny day only all day long....

Dun feel like typing anymore. Its getting sickenig to type more.

graduated

2007-06-22T04:01:00.000+08:00

I've graduated.........and there are things which i would have liked to do which cant be done.

I love Me.

cut hair

2007-06-21T00:49:00.000+08:00

and so i feel like cutting my hair i think of a revolution make it short once and for all......

But i think i wil look super weird and funny
BUt dun care la
just cut short la
Sure look stupid and weird

Snap the new look den, tomolo it shall be

movie

2007-06-19T00:50:00.000+08:00

Finally watching movie with the gay bros. Free ticks courtesy of danny tan. TOoooo shrek 3, kinda loved the show and to stupid edwin......thks for the msn to look out for wat is after the credits....THKS!!!!! NOTHING....ZZzzzz blardy hell...

Ministry of National Development have family day. combo meal with ticks 3 bucks and danny's treat. lol.....yay! free movie free popcorn....His mum lobang but gay boi wasnt free to join in so the 3 of us make the grp then.

Shrek 3 got me laffing again......after blades of glory, i think i nvr really stop smiling in this show and i dun mind watching it again. But......nvm

Always wanted to head down to Tanjong pagar railway station to see see how isit like. Just like M'sia, truely asia....LOL damnit, i'm mean. has a mee goreng and a ramly burger. Dunno y, maybe no where else to go so i think there quite nice to go but dun think many pp will like it. Normal food with normal atmosphere but alot of malaysian i guess.

Then after dinner, met gayboi at the railway. so heng meh, danny just suan him non stop. But try not to hang out with him too much
1)he's gay
2)he looks like a woman last time, an ugly one
3)he sells insurance

LOL, ok serious other than point 3 which i am just kidding, the rest are true, not say not true but i dun have a thing against insurance agent lar.

Still, we love to scold gay boi.

sorry seems to me the hardest word

2007-06-18T17:09:00.001+08:00

what i got to do make u love me? what i gotta do to make u care?
what do i do when lightning strikes me? Thats a way to find that u're not there
what i gotta do to make u want me? what i gotta do to be heard?
what do i say when its all over?

Sorry seems to be the hardest word.

so sad..so sad...
Its a sad sad situation..
its sad its sad, OOOh, why cant we just talk it over.

All it seems to me, sorry seems to be the hardest word.

Cant help

2007-06-17T12:48:00.000+08:00

I cant help but keep watching SHen DIao Xia LU AGAIN. It like taken so nicely. developed from the the times of andy lau to a more realistic and more advanced technology. Beautiful surroundings, trees and CGI makes the whole story so alive, so much more alive. THe cast "yang guo" he is damn yandao. And the girl seems so-so but when u keep seeing her so indepth into her role of Long_er, pain love sorrow. U realise there lies a beauty and a lovely one who displays all virtues of a virtuous wife and woman. These 2 cast made the whole show come to life and i cant help but keep watching the VCDs again and of coz the repeat on weekend TV.

Yang GUo is damned yandao, If i can have 1/8 of his looks i'll be satisfied.
If i can ever find a virtuous woman again.

Yea

2007-06-17T01:17:00.001+08:00

i just COPED this from my fren's blog......and i think its quite nice. Nice songs must share ba

2007-06-15T13:53:00.000+08:00

十六年后，再此重会
夫妻深情，勿失信约
珍重万千，预求相聚

20 yrs

2007-06-15T13:43:00.000+08:00

song

2007-06-15T03:46:00.000+08:00

Everytime i hear this, reminds me.

This is a lovely andy lau song

为了的是设么

2007-06-14T01:45:00.000+08:00

I just finished a 41 episode legend of the condor heroes within 2 days. It has always been my favourite movie series of all time. I nvr fail to forget each and everytime i watched it. Maybe its the love the bounds maybe its the hearfelt story. It nvr fails to describe so much of human emotions and compassions and the love of man, the hatred of pp, the society and our lives.

As the show moved along, i sometimes just couldn't understand the word "情" It takes 5 secs to finish writing but it takes a lifetime to experience. To say experience is an understatement, its a lifelong of non-understanding and neverending.

所谓情事难了, I've seen the different versions many many times. My frend says its suicidal to see such a show. Its one of my favourite shows, maybe i share the fantasy of normal beings extended to super powers or even special abilities to lift themselves up the social ladder. The one man who shows the world how things is done. The 16 yrs of unhappiness. The 16 yrs of sorrow and hatred to find out that Nothing is at the end of it.

Just as everything is taken away, ONLY a movie can fufill this wish - That is, fate played a circle around them while taking everything else away. In reality, there is no such coincidence.

人就是自私的. For each his own, the reality of life is sometimes too far away from my ideal world of peace. But again, we cannot please everyone. Neither can we force anyone. 只有创伤，才能成长但情未了，心未安，又如何？

爱很情愁 comes hand in hand. 没爱，就没痛。没情，就没愁。

为设么要爱，为设么要情

没爱没情也不行。
没痛没恨也不行。

此刻情字却领悟的茫茫。不想也难，再想跟煎熬。史人还爱还恨，恐怕以后却是伤衡累累。

2007-06-13T22:29:00.001+08:00

所谓爱情，问世间情为何物，只叫人生死相徐。

因爱而痛，因情而伤

虽爱但有情人却无能终成卷属。

因爱而死，因爱而活

人心难撤，无愿无悔

我

2007-06-13T22:15:00.000+08:00

风来了，雨来了，
他们为设么不知道。

我看不到，我听不到
这爱情这么狂料

龙儿

Havent

2007-06-10T22:58:00.000+08:00

I haven done so many things with you yet.
I haven lay down on the beach with you like there's no tomorrow.
I haven take gd care of you as i wanted to
I haven earn money to make life better for you
I haven gave you what you wanted
I haven gone on a cruise yet
I haven travel around Singapore eading the nicest food or the best food there was
I haven hug you to sleep
I haven brought you to have fun yet
Most of all,

I haven had you to come to Europe with me.
I haven had u come to the maldives
I haven had you rafting in the waves in M'sia
I haven had you together in South East Asia
I haven had you to maui
I haven had you to diving
I haven had you smiling to me, saying that's all you wanted

I haven.........i haven't.......

Sigh

2007-06-09T05:00:00.001+08:00

I'm starting to feel that i'll nvr understand and you nvr understand me forever

sigh

2007-06-09T03:33:00.000+08:00

I can only say, i fell in love with the person who wasnt ready to love yet.

And so

2007-06-08T03:27:00.000+08:00

My life as a student ends. 2nd lower. FUll stop. A lil disappointed but who else can i blame but me. Better than nothing. Most impt thing.

I only use 4 years to complete wad i supposed to complete. End of story. A new life precedes. THis is much easier to move on than other things.

Huang Weimin gave me a B+, i more than satisfied. But i noe i could have gotten an A with anotehr prof makes me feel a lil sad. THose pp who got it lucky got the 2nd upper and so it goes....nvr comparing.....life is simple and different if u nvr study. I chose the study way. Blame who?

Move ba! I'm disappearing slowly.

hah

2007-06-06T21:08:00.001+08:00

I'm so childish. i'm such a laughing stock. I'm a joke

zzz

2007-06-06T14:52:00.000+08:00

As i wake up to each day and i come back home from every single event each time, the feeling of emptiness is present within.....wad does that mean? it means the reality of life is back as well as everyone headed back to reality already. Friday will be D'Day with results coming in and there's no more excuse anymore to slack at home or whatsoever.

At the very same time, the feelings of reality sinks into me and i dun really like that. B'coz each time that feelings sinks into me, i only think of the past. Then i get afraid again, den i feel depressed again. And do i hate feeling that way. The one that was everything has now become nothing.

how long will i continue to be in such a state? how much do i still have to go thru'? Maybe all i need is just the simple life.

你不爱我

2007-06-05T13:07:00.000+08:00

http://music.51flash.com/detail/127574.shtml

习惯被拒绝的人会先拒绝

这一次至少是我先说离别

有一些痛楚看不见泪水

有一种防卫叫做我无所谓

要让你快乐原是我的心愿

可是你从不在意我的伤悲

丢给我一些喜悦的碎屑

却带走我一切

你不爱我

是我舍不得

是我不配

为你在狼狈

你不爱我

你真的不爱我

尽力而为我拼命给也是浪费

你不爱我

是我舍不得

是我不配

和命运作对

你不爱我

你真的不爱我

一直以为

我是后卫

原来只是

那后备

要让你快乐原是我的心愿

可是你从不在意我的伤悲

丢给我一些喜悦的碎屑

却带走我一切

一直以为

我是后卫

原来只是

那后备

bye

2007-06-04T16:06:00.001+08:00

Time to job hunt....very soon....the world will change along with me......and i will disappear from the face of the earth

songs

2007-06-03T12:29:00.001+08:00

Eric Moo's 指别....send me anyone

Hongkong

2007-05-30T17:55:00.000+08:00

And so the trip to hongkong begins...with united airlines at $366 sing dollars with in-flight entertainment and meals, we got a gd bargain and all thks to the hall gang....Jasmine got the priceline.com price bidding...yay! better than jetstar. And all thks to Liancheng, he got the $900 per room for 6 days in hongkong at a 3-star hotel....
First day reach hk, den keep raining and raining....ZZzzz thot sian liao...den the plane ride to the hk international airport is like a roller coaster ride, keep jumping up and down due to the turbulence for at least 20 minutes.....i think i felt like vomiting after that but not so bad....
Initially it was supposed to be at kowloon hotel but now its at stanford hillview. SUcky service except the house chambers were very friendly.....counter sucks...Nvrmind....later post up some pictures fomr standford hillview, its a steep slope...i think got 35 degrees.....SHag....dunno got take picture anot....forget. Shucks...But here's the pricing for eating tidbits and drinking their beverage.....Just to mention, i drank beer every day, One can just HKD$6-10 THats like 1- 1.50 sing dollars. Cheap la.....take a look at the price in the pictures below. Mad ah, think i bo liao meh, 7-eleven so near only. Oh yar, thats the guy who stayed in the same room for the next 6 days den, tata....more to be updated soon.

weak

2007-05-30T01:04:00.000+08:00

I'm sick till i cant move......i vomit my dinner and i see blood in my spit....

Back from HK

2007-05-29T04:41:00.001+08:00

I've simply no idea how many people looks into this page of solemn entries that has lived past the past one mth or so......Nvrtheless, i wonder again, how many are just simply looking at OH NO, he's at this again.....The 6 days trip didnt do me any gd, i wished someone was there.....Everynight b4 i fall asleep, i will unknowingly think....unknowingly struggle with my inner self. When i look at love shows, i'll start thinking again.....The travelling was gd, took my mind off somethings.....Den no matter how tired, how tired i am, w.o fail, i sleep to my dreams......and i wake to my dreams like a monk travelling from temple to temple.....The same scripts, the same route.....I struggle with my own self.....wondering if i chose not to break thru, or did i just cant break thru.

Shall tell more abt HK in a while's time....meanwhile....My life is just black and white.....

Nthing's more than just internet surfing and chilling out....beers and wine takes the day outta me....at night, the tv and stoning takes my life away....I'm here rattling in the mist of the cock crowing in half an hrs time....I'm in pain again....Indeed, i failed to understand wad was required of me....even when the perfect angel fell upon the skies i failed to put in everything to make it happen...Den its goes on like a lifeless and mundane cycle every single day.

DO i wan it to end or do i wan it to cont. i guess thats just a qn of want or dun want....6 bloody daes.....And i still think of the past.. I struggle each day to walk a single step away....Yet at the same time....life goes on, time passes and things happen with me unknowingly wasting away every single bit of it. On the other end...Life is normal...occasional disturbance and full stop. I wonder simple to myself.......y this huge difference? wad have i done to deserve this? I find no answer bestowed upon the face of the earth as i leave the stones unturned.

As i go on, it gets weary and teary... Shall stop..

There is still so much to be done....so much to be fufilled.....closing on to quarter life, This can easily overtake many things in the past. It lays motionless, started on the very day it ended.....a whole 23 mths of love, angst and excuses. 2005-2007 (Rest in peace). If vampires existed, i'll revive the dead. If an illness was involved, i'll get the best doctor.......For a heart that stopped to love, even a deity cant do shit.

Faced upon the walls
The nights have turned lonely
little twinkies fading
like the flavour dreaming

strong to passion
deep and compassionate
the nights stayed quiet
As my heart shrieks out in pain,
echoes thru the depths of quietness.

gonna go

2007-05-19T23:24:00.000+08:00

Gonna leave soon....a few more hrs....
Vacations only remind me back and back to the past.....Too much travelling...too much getaways and each time i go abroad i had her in my vey mind.....even today...
FOr i noe, nothings the same again...But still i live with it...
SUpposedly to be a happy time travelling.....supposedly to be a happy graduation trip....
But all will be well once i meet them.....hope it takes my mind off things...
The quiet times will make me wonder again....the walking ard will make me remember things again....

i always think of her everyday......I think its quite painful for me.....This trip will be a very heartfelt one......i realli wished i had not gone thru this.....I wished i can happily enjoy my grad trip...But i cant....I'm always like this....why!

why

2007-05-19T03:45:00.000+08:00

I dunno y....i kept it all.....i still take it out. took great pains not to take it outta the box....and hear what it will start singing to me...

why do i fall?

i need to let it all out....but where?

I think i'm gonna cry again....i beta stop.....a big man with a weak mind..

The singing pig.....i fail miserably......i dun wan to say anymore...

sigh

2007-05-19T02:01:00.000+08:00

The recent posts is not of any interest.....nthings to interesting....nothings ggin too well....
i rearranged the room, now i dunno how to describe....neither do i noe y i rearrange it....everyone else telling me a new beginning ....a new beginning.....But do they know....how much it means to me???

Morning/Night?

2007-05-17T05:49:00.000+08:00

THe nights and mornings have seen to me like an endless route each day. losing every single drive day after day. Losing direction. losing me. losing myself.
Isit morning now? or isit night time. As i lay upon my bed tossing and turning. perturbed by the facts and reality of life, I approach the computer and once again wriggling on the keyboard in darkness in my own little cosy corner. SO many times i tell myself nvr to let go of wat u feel to let pp know. SO many times, i told myself to keep all these to myself. Slowly, the need for an avenue to release my thots and my feelings are a necessity. I've lost it. I;ve lost my sanity.....

How much times have i been awake since i returned back to this cosy corner of my life. Endless....SLeepless... I wake up and the same things happen....These are the timings which i sleep today.......Save me from the fires of hell..

All i wanna do is to lead a simple simple life.......And yet...

SHivering and pondering.......i yearn...

I yearn for many things.......and it goes.......
......
...
..
.

2007-05-16T23:33:00.000+08:00

就算是我不懂，就算是原谅我，
请不要把分手当桌你的请求。
我知道坚持要走，是你受伤的藉口，
请你回头，我会陪你走到最后。
你说你过火铳荣，沉默是应为包容。

应为爱你，所以放手。

2007-05-15T21:52:00.000+08:00

相信爱吗？还能爱吗？
看着我们的照片，想念若凌若璇。
去年的时间，我们笑得很甜。
但一切都变成眼泪。

2007-05-15T13:15:00.000+08:00

好痛，好痛，真的好痛

NO

2007-05-13T17:49:00.000+08:00

Its back....i kept thinking and thinking.....keep me away from thinking....the past....the trip.....the quiet times. How much it meant to me. How MUCH i actually expect and how much i actually loved someone so badly, so lovingly. So much that i can give up so many things. And now i'm just left with....myself. i yearn. I died. i cried.

nvr

2007-05-11T14:08:00.000+08:00

I nvr recovered. I have put my all and my everything. in Xchange i only recived nothing but.....enuff said. The busy times made me work off my mind and the other things distracted me from wad i had. And den all that is, is just an empty me. I dun wan to lay down and ponder. I'm still as lost as b4. emptiness, i cant see.......i failed again. Again....and i just thot my best yrs are coming. I have nothing to say. i feel the anger, i feel the hurt and i feel the pain.

It is all but nothing to square one. And how much and HOW LONG will this take? I still lay down and ponder.

再说一次

2007-05-09T03:07:00.000+08:00

再说一次
请再给我一个理由，说你不爱我。

Pissed and angry

2007-05-08T02:12:00.000+08:00

I'm very pissed and angry about certain pp right now. But i will not say the names and shall not say the names, why? Becoz THere are pp who reads the blog and if i say, pp will know and pp will discuss and somehow the pp will noe and den it will be weird and then blah blah blah. THe society of EQs, AMAZING, speaking of EQs, you "CANT TELL THEM DIRECTLY" otherwise they will be hurt. I say fark off. So, why bother.....its not like i dun dare to say anything its just that my so called EQ tells me i shouldnt. So, i am chanting away damning every single thing that comes along. Sick and tired.....

Why not make me alone?

And Den

2007-05-07T12:54:00.000+08:00

I screwed up...zzZZzz, the mod asked me a few qns i couldnt really answer and my prof even told me that i nvr try to understand one part of the Literature review that copied from. Die le die le.....i hate it. ZZzzz i screwed up.

Last day

2007-05-07T10:28:00.001+08:00

For the last time, bloggin in my own room. Bye room, bye hall 8 bye 44 and bye frends. I'll miss everything. things are nvr the same again. Graduation. i dunnoe wad i am afraid about. All the best to myself and everyone else. Thank you frends for making my UNI life so fun and interesting. I luv ya all. I could just break down and cry. Tomolo's presentation. All thes best neh paully.....all the best. DO ur best.Relax! It doesnt matter anymore, you can do it.